I decided to give give myself therapy by writing whatever I want (what I’ve been doing for almost 3 years anyway…) because its been 2 days that I woke up crying because of bad dreams… yeah I know, I’m a 23 year old woman and I don’t need the feels right now… but you know… I’m still human
I don’t actually know whats wrong, except you know… the crying in the morning part… that’s always not good…
I don’t know what to write… maybe lately I’ve been feeling kind of alone… (there it is…) I’ve had people tell time and again that they care… but when the time comes that I need them… they’re just never there! When I’m feeling particularly dark and no one replies… I just tell myself not to be there, but when they need me, I can’t help but be there with the awful awful voice asking myself why… but then again, I don’t want people to feel what I feel when I’m alone, I don’t know if this is just something I say to bring myself up to you as a great person, but this is really what I think I do. Therefore, I don’t think I deserve being alone… and I don’t know what to do to remedy this…
I think I feel a little bit better, although, I didn’t know I felt that bad actually… its like when Harry removed the necklace Horcrux from his neck…
Has this ever happened to you? Woke up crying for no good reason?
PS: how optimistic am I? I remember during my dream… I kept thinking things are gonna get better, although it just gets from bad to worst as the dream went on… whats (I don’t know if bad or good… lets go with good) good about it though is that I know that I’m dreaming, its kind of a trait for me… I usually can tell myself to wake up… but not yesterday or today…
anyway, if you read this… thanks 🙂
@kahyehm – twitter and instagram… also, COC haha not that you care
kriziacasil@gmail.com – email… obviously (please read in Snape’s voice)
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