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Contemplating on the things ive learned these past few days…
My mind has been uncharacteristically clear, ive been able to see what ive been trying to hide from myself for a long time… and when youve realized youve wasted your time on a person that youve given si much effort and time to… it leaves you to think about what your perspectives in life are… even now im having flashbacks of what happened the past years and my golly have i been so blind. Its like having glasses now… i just dont jnow what to do with my new found eyesight though, do i continue to be useful or do i stop and make them realize they need me and theyve been treating me like shit?
I dont know why i lime books… I mean… They make me cry a lot… You knew (if youve been reading my blog) that i was left paralyzed when i finished reading allegiant… But since i havent got as much time… I mean at this moment… I read the fault in our stars the i felt paralyzed and decided to read if i stay in a flash…. Whoch right now… I dont know what i feel about i mean… Those are both really great books but omg my heart
In medicine you learn a lot of things about the human body, even the mind… how our chemistry plays a role on our reaction our feelings all this i exoected to learn… and is glad that i do…
What shoked me was how i learned a few things about character.
I learned that indeed everything can be solved just by talking about it, i knew this already but what i really learned and experienced ib medicine was that i learned that openess and right timing and choosing your words is needed so you can attain a healthy talk and understanding of what you want and listening too to what the other party wants… its check and balance…
Now i dont know if i could use that un practice but i could surely use that in life right? :)
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the fact that i dont have a friend i could say these things that has been happening now is what makes me so mad about it, i dont have, i cant tell something fully how i feel, what happened just , i just cant get over it … i cant get over that i lost my trust to not one but almost all my friends, i cant say i when ill get over this, im trying im not a bad person, i dont want to live like this when everytime i remember what happened, i need to stop and try to breathe, im not saying im still where i am last semester, im just acknowledging that after what happened last night, im not okay yet, im trying to be, but im not, im far from it, when you realize that someone you tried to open up to was the wrong person, it hurts like hell…i was trying to think that i shouldnt dwell on that but,i just, i was not trusting to begin thats why it hurts more when these things happened, i just, i dont know, i cant even say and you probably dont understand me, i probably lost you at this point, but i just want to let this all out because as i have told you, i dont trust anyone enough for this…thanks
As a kid, i never believed that the earth houses people that are whatever the books describes as “bad”
I never believed in crab mentality
I never believed that promises can be broken
I never believed that people can tell you they love you and then break your heart
I never believed that someone can tell you they accept you, that theyre always there for you only to leave you the first chance things gets hard
I never thought that betrayal can happen outside my TV
I never believed that people can say theyll keep your secret and next thing you know everyone knows it
But as i grew older i learned that this could all happen, i learned it the hardway… im guessing that’s the only way we can learn,cause things like this? You dont believe it until its staring at you, and spitting on your face… its hard but as i grow older i think i wont ever be the kind of person who gets used to it…
I still think its not all people, its just a few people who makes you disappointed with humanity… i still believe that overall its a beautiful life with good friends, good people
Theyll help you climb as high as you can go, and more
Theyll keep your promises
Theyll tell you they love you and they mean it every second
Theyll always be there for you no matter how hard it gets
Theyll never betray you
Theyll keep your secrets
But every time I remember what happened, I just, I can’t even… I don’t know
It’s not pride like other people might think, it’s I’m just not ready, I think I we want to work this out, we could, buti Dont know
I just want to share this page I found, is it really cheesy if I tell you I teared up a little because of this? Hehe :)
This bothers me so much,
Originally posted on Xenophilia (True Strange Stuff):
In this interview Dr. Maurice Hilleman reveals some astounding revelations. He admits that Merck drug company vaccines (Polio) had been deliberately contaminated with SV40, a cancer-causing monkey virus from 1953 – 63.
For years, researchers suggested that millions of vials of polio vaccine, contaminated with SV40, infected individuals which caused human tumors, and by 1999, molecular evidence of SV40 infections were showing up in children born after 1982. Some experts now suggest the virus may have remained in the polio vaccine until as late as 1999.
In 2002, the journal Lancet published compelling evidence that contaminated polio vaccine was responsible for up to half of the 55,000 non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma cases that were occurring each year. And there is the likelihood that there was an importing and spreading of the AIDS virus in the same manner, as revealed in the video.
At first no one could fathom how the virus had…
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